| Cheese and Rice!!!! |
[21 Oct 2005|11:39am] |
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I can't seem to figure out how to change the font and stuff on my myspace! I've read what I can find on how to do it and I go to the html pages and it still doesn't work for me. Anyone with any suggestions please let me know!! I don't know maybe I'm just too retarded to do stuff like this!
So, I get to go home with Ryan today for the weekend. We're going to his high school football game and then maybe on Saturday we're going on a haunted hay ride! Hopefully it doesn't rain, although, I'll probably be sooo scared that I actually would pee my pants or scream like some sissy girl and then they would all laugh at me and I would be sooo embarresed I wouldn't go back to their house for like a long time!
I can't wait for Thanksgiving Break. Ryan is coming home with me!!!! I'm glad because I missed him sooo much over Fall Break and I'm just glad that we are actually doing something like this. It makes me think that maybe everything will be alright and that he is the most perfect guy in the world. The one I'm meant to be with. I want him to be that person, but you know me, always second guessing things...especially relationships. I'm such a loser. If I spent half the time being happy with him as I do worrying that I'm gonna do something to completly screw this up, I would be happy a lot more.
We had a fight AGAIN last night. I hate fighting with him, but it seems like we've done it a lot lately, and of course that has me worried shitless because I don't want to lose him. And he told me last night not to worry about anything because everything was gonna be fine, and that it was just a bad week and that he never wants to lose me and all that. I believe him, really I do, but at the same time, I don't. I'm afraid that I'm going to let go too much and I'm gonna get hurt and I don't ever want to be hurt the way that I've been hurt in the past. I mean come on, not one, not two, but three guys cheating on me!!! What the hell is that!??!??! Do I wear a sign that says "Hey cheat on me!" And now that I think about it, the one still really hurts sometimes without me realizing that it does that much and no it isn't the one those of you who know me that well are thinking of. It's the one that occured with the person I thought I could trust more than anyone in this entire world. Look how wrong I was. If I was that wrong before, who knows if I'm not misjudging people now and trusting who I shouldn't and who is only going to hurt me?? I can't take being hurt anymore. If I get hurt one more time, I don't know if I could deal with it, or even pick myself back up afterwards. Especially with Ryan, if anything would happen between us, I don't know that I would want to pick everything up and keep going. I can't see myself without him, yet I can see him leaving me... I don't know...I'm just too f'ed up!
I don't even know what just came over me, I guess that shit has been building for a while and just needed to come out...Sorry!
Well that's all for now...LATERZ
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| I need a life... |
[21 Oct 2005|09:25am] |
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December,
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in
games and interactions. Impatient and hasty.
Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to
be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises.
Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and
trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered.
Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high
pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to
joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
What does your birth month reveal about you? (read memo)
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Dirty (Messy) Bun
You're the type of person that is kind and
innocent, but you're also very funny and
outgoing. No one can always predict what you're
going to do or say, which is why so many people
like you! You like keeping yourself busy, you
just hate doing nothing! You always make sure
to have a smile on your face--it's your
trademark after all!
What hairstyle suits your personality? (For girls! And with pics!)
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Your strong point is Interpersonal. You get along
very well with people which probably makes you
pretty popular. You love being surrounded by
people and hate being alone. Your probably very
talkitive also. Your strong point in school is
pretty much anything you can talk in because
you love being around people. Your job should
be a talk show host or a teacher or any other
job where you can talk.
What Type of Intelligence do you have? 8 different results. -*-*-cool anime pictures-*-*-
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Your element is Light. Your heart is pure and
shining with love. You believe in the goodness
of those around you and give almost everyone a
smile. You are not the kind to hide your
happiness and tend to smile all day long, both
in and out. But when sadness hits you, you
become very devastated and may be upset for
quite some time. What you need in your life is
friends, friends who will love you
unconditionally, like you love them. But you
have a naive nature and don't always notice
when someone is trying to hurt you. Some would
say you are oblivious to mean people, which
makes you an easy target. However, your true
friends will probably be there for you and save
you. In school you are either the popular one
or the little weird one. It all depends if
"the higher people" find your caring
side irritating or not. Nevertheless, you have
a bubbly personality and are social. Big partys
may not be your thing since you want bonding
time with your friends, so slumber-partys fit
you more. You like the happy things in life and
like everyone else to be as happy as you are.
Rate and message!
What is your element? [with pics + detailed answeres]
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Sweet love is what you will find
in your heart. You have true and innoncent
feelings and are probably a little shy around
the opposite gender. Guys will love you for
that, so don't put up an evil, cold-hearted
mask to cover it!!! You will fall in love...
just because you will! Love is heaven to you.
Please rate aaaaand... eat chocolate bars?
*cough*rate*cough* ^^
What Love are you Fated for? ~AWESOME anime pics!~
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People see love in your eyes. You either love
everyone around you ooor...somebody's in
loooove, no? Seriously, though... You seem to
have a lot of love in your heart right now.
You're singing songs and picking flowers...or
at least you feel like doing so. And we can't
forget floating on air, right? Well, don't let
anyone ruin that for you, and if things don't
turn out...don't worry over it. There are worse
things, and you know it.
What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!))
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| quizes quizes everywhere.... |
[14 Oct 2005|11:20am] |
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| How You Life Your Life | 
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. |
| Your Power Color Is Red-Orange | 
At Your Highest:
You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.
At Your Lowest:
You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.
In Love:
You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.
How You're Attractive:
You are very affectionate and inspire trust.
Your Eternal Question:
"Am I Respected?" |
| Your Mood Ring is Dark Red | 
Very happy
Love
Passion |
| Your Personality Is |
Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. |
| How You Are In Love | 
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
| Gummy Bears | 
You may be smooshie and taste unnatural, but you're so darn cute. |
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| Quiz time... |
[01 Oct 2005|07:28pm] |
| What Your Underwear Says About You | 
You tend to buy new underwear instead of doing laundry.
You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone. |
| Your Hidden Talent | 
You have the power to persuade and influence others.
You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.
The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.
Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think! |
| Your Kissing Purity Score: 63% Pure | 
For you, kissing isn't a casual thing
Lip to lip action makes your heart sing |
| Your Birthdate: December 24 | 
Born on the 24th, you have a greater capacity for responsibility and helping others than your may have realized.
You may also become the mediator and peacemaker in inharmonious situations.
Devoted to family, you tend to manage and protect.
This birth date adds to the emotional nature and perhaps to the sensitivities.
Affections are important to you; both the giving and the receiving. |
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| Way tooo superstitious....... |
[13 Sep 2005|04:07pm] |
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What the heck? Will my phone ring? Let's find out
i just wanted to see if my phone would ring. dont read it. its too long.
Body: actually got a call while reading, kinda freaky
Body: k wow freaky stuff im not even kidding my phone rang during this but whatever!! it was still weird!
Ok guys, this truly is freaky,
my cell literally rang as soon as I read
the last word of this email!!!!!
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My phone did to!! =l
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My phone rang while I was reading this
shit my phone rang too
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hOLY cRAP mY CELL pHONE RANG!!!!! ahHHHHHH
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ok my phone rang before it was done...
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my fone rang during it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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This works so try it yourself
I am taking the bait -
what do I have to lose right?
Hope it works!
Supposedly The Phone Will Ring
Right After You Do This.
Just read the little stories and
think of a wish as you scroll all
the way to the bottom. There is
a message there - then make your
wish.
No attachment on this one.
Stories
my name is jamal and i am 22 and i was fuckin some girl and i wished that i could fuck more then 1 girl that was at 2:30 then at 2:52 my other bitch was so horny and we all fucked i workes.
I'm 13 years old, and I wished
that my dad would come home from
the army, because he'd been having
problems with his heart and right
leg. It was 2:53 p.m . When I made
my wish. At 3:07 p.m. (14 minutes
later), the doorbell rang, and
there my Dad was, luggage and all!!
I'm Katie and I'm 20 and I've been
having trouble in my job and on the
verge of quitting. I made a simple
wish that my boss would get a new
job. That was at 1:35 and at 2:55
there was an announcement that he
was promoted and was leaving for
another city. Believe me...this
really works!!!
My name is Ann and I am 45 years
of age. I had always been single
and had been hoping to get into a
nice, loving relationship for many
years. While kind of daydreaming
(and right after receiving this email)
I wished that a quality person would
finally come into my life. That was at
9:10 AM on a Tuesday. At 9:55 AM
a FedEx delivery man came into my
office.He was cute, polite and
could not stop smiling at me. He
started coming back almost everyday
(even without packages) and asked me
out a week later. We married 6
months later and now have been
happily married for 2 years.
hey,my name is for me to know
and you to kind out...but im 13 years old and
i wished that this guy that i was so called
going out with would seriously go out with me......
so i mad this wish and im like seriuos...this really came true..now we are happily goin out.....
What a great email it was!!
Just scroll down to the end, but
while you do, think of a wish.
Make your wish when you have completed
scrolling. Whatever age you are, is the
number of minutes it will take for your
wish to come true. ex.you are 25 years
old, it will take 25 minutes for your wish
to come true).
However, if you don't send this to
people in 5 minutes, you will have bad
luck for years!!
Go for it!!!
SCROLL DOWN!!!!
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Congratulations!!! Your wish will
now come true in your age minutes.
Now follow this carefully....it
can be very rewarding!!!!
If you repost this within the next 5 min.
something major that you've been wanting
will happen.
This is scary!
The phone will ring right after
you do this :]
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| I'm way too superstitious... |
[09 Sep 2005|09:17am] |
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Girl: hey baby i want to show you....
Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad
Girl: why? whats wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything
Girl: explain baby
Boy: just lost a championship game,
parents flipped out on me for no reason,
and im catching a cold
Girl: well hey there will always be other games,
you know ill take care of you when your sick,
what your parents flip about ?
Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair
Girl: is it alot of money
Boy: no it just sucks
Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down
Boy: bye
Girl: wait i want to give you some...
Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?
Girl: yeah sure
Girl: bye
Boy: bye
2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....er friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition.
This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend
Sister: omg ( crying )
Boy: what? whats wrong ?
Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck
Boy: is she ok ? ?????
Sister: shes in critical condition
Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes
He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump
Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something
Girls mom: yeah this...
it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick
he opened it.....
it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am
and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you
sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to
and the first picture they took together
he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture
it looked as if in the picture she was crying
then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead
If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this.
if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen
Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best
day of your life THIS SATURDAY. You're number one *love* Will
either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better. If
you break this chain you will have a lousy day on Saturday, and
you know you can
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| Back at SHU |
[29 Aug 2005|06:24pm] |
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YAY!!! I'm back at my beloved SHU!! I'm so glad to be back. Took a little while to get situated but I did and having a blast already. I love my room mates. They are sooo awesome and I know this year will be great! It was sooo nice to see everyone. I haven't seen Gary yet and I think he's the only one, him and Steve but Scott says Veggie Dip practices should resume shortly and I can see them all then. YAY for my awesome friends. Krista is here this year. I'm so glad she decided to come from VC. *I hope your year goes really well. If you need anything let me know!*
Started classes today. So far so good but I've only had two out of seven, so tomorrow will really be the test. Pray for me. Tomorrow will be hell! I still have to get all my work shit settled too. Should be tons of fun! YEAH RIGHT!!!!
I met my new room mate. She's really cool and she loves General Hospital. I almost peed myself when she told me that today. I mean, it's only my favorite soap opera and she loves the same actors I do, how awesome is that! Steve Burton rocks!!! I think this year is going to go really well and I can't wait to get to know her better over this year.
There is one thing missing from this year and that's Kellyn. I miss that bitch soooo much it's ridiculous! I brought Hump to school with me and pictures of her and I so at least I have something here. She also said she was going to come visit and I'm sure some of us will make trips down there to see her too. * I hope you love being at school this year. We all miss you soooooo much! Better keep in touch or we'll all beat your ass! Love ya bitch!!!!!*
Well that's it for now. Time for dinner with Ryan and Krista. LATERZ
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| From Kimmie.... |
[19 Aug 2005|06:16pm] |
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Your dating personality profile:
Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.
Traditional - Modern culture does not move you. You hold traditional values dear to your heart.
Wealthy/Ambitious - You know what your goals are and you pursue them vigourously. Achieving success is important to you. | Your date match profile:
Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life.
Traditional - You aren't looking for someone who is sexually repressed. You want someone who is adventurous under the covers.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. | Your Top Ten Traits
1. Religious
2. Traditional
3. Wealthy/Ambitious
4. Practical
5. Romantic
6. Funny
7. Big-Hearted
8. Liberal
9. Shy
10. Intellectual
| Your Top Ten Match Traits
1. Religious
2. Traditional
3. Practical
4. Romantic
5. Big-Hearted
6. Conservative
7. Shy
8. Funny
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Intellectual
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Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions
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| For Ryan |
[05 Aug 2005|03:34pm] |
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When Ryan was taking his final he asked me to write him something and now he wants me to put it on here for some unknown reason. He's just a big dork! Here ya go Ry!
Ryan,
You told me to write you a letter, but I don't know what to write. How can I possibly put down in words how much you mean to me? I'm pretty sure it's impossible. You're the person I can turn to no matter what kind of mood I'm in or what the problem is. I’ve never been happier and I've never been so in love with somebody that I can't see straight. You’re the one. The one who knows when I'm scared and why. You don't even have to talk to me and you know if something's wrong. You know when I just want to be held and when to leave me alone. Nobody has ever made me feel so special and so important and known me so well that it’s scary. You were telling me what you wanted out of a relationship and Ryan, that’s what I want too. I want someone to love and care for and someone who loves and cares for me. I want someone who is not afraid to tell me to be quiet and put me in my place when I’ve gone too far. I want you. You’re my heart, my soul. You’re my everything and I thank God everyday for allowing someone as perfect and as wonderful as you into my life.
I never would have made it through my first year of school without you. Whether it was friends over the internet or the person I love above everything else. You’ve seen the worst, I hope, and you love me in spite of it all. I don’t know what I would do without you. I’d be so lost. I can’t imagine my life without you. I don’t want to. You are my life. You are everything I’ve always wanted and never thought I’d find. You restored my faith in love and relationships. I’m so sorry that you’ve had an awful past. If I could change it, I would. I’m sorry that mine haunts me and I’m sorry you have to deal with that. I’m trying to change that, I just need your patience and understanding and I know that I have it. I’m so thankful that you know it still hurts and it will, at least for a while. In the past, nobody has understood and it’s always been used against me. You just put up with it and you shouldn’t have to. I will put it behind me and I’ll do it for us. I never want to lose you sweetheart. I pray everyday that it will never happen. I need you in my life.
You have no idea how proud I am of you. I know if I had to face some of the challenges you do, I wouldn’t make it. You are the strongest person I know and I can’t wait to see what the future has in store for you, for us. You are destined to be great and to succeed beyond everything you think possible. You can do it baby, I know you can. You can do whatever you want. I have the utmost faith in you. Reach for the stars. I know you can reach out and grab whichever one you want. I’ll always be here to celebrate your successes and help you recover from your few failures. Please don’t ever shut me out. I want to help you and be a part of whatever you will allow me to be a part of. You’re everything to me. Just remember, I will be by your side through thick and thin, whether you want me there or not. I’ll be there with you. I will never leave you and never hurt you. You can trust me and I know that I can trust you. And I do, please believe me when I say that I do. I know it may not seem like it sometimes, but I think because I love you and trust you so much that I’m afraid of losing you that much more. You make me feel so unbelievably special and loved beyond belief.
Every little thing that you do reminds me how incredibly lucky I am. Your smile makes me melt and every time I look at your gorgeous blue eyes, I realize all over again, how much I love you and how truly safe I am with you. I know you would never hurt me. You know what my favorite thing to do with you is? Hold you hand. I love holding your hand and come on how retarded is that? But when I hold your hand, I’m on cloud nine and I’m so happy and I’m just…the feeling I feel in my heart is indescribable, that’s how wonderful I feel. Nobody’s ever been able to make me this happy. I’m glad you and only you can. I don’t know what else to say. It’s hard writing down how much and why you love someone. But I hope you know how much and why. You are the greatest thing to ever happen to me and I love you more than anything.
Thank you for sticking by me in April and May. I know it wasn’t easy and I’m sorry for that. But I’m glad they were tough because I think that first month made us to last. That first month was so miserable; I’m surprised you didn’t bail. I’m so glad neither of us did. I promise it will be nothing be good from here on out and it has been. The past three weeks have been amazing. I’ve never had as much fun as I did with you and your family. Thank you so much for my autograph. I don’t think anyone else would have chased down Ben Roethlisberger for me. Thank you for taking me to my first drive-in and for taking me to the fair three times and taking me to see the Hillbillies. I had so much fun and every minute of it was special because I was with you. Sitting at home, driving around, and walking through stores have never been so special. But because I was with you, they were. We don’t need to go out and spend money all the time. Neither of us have it to spend. I love just sitting home with you and I hope we do that often. Nothing fancy needed for this little girl. All I need is you by my side and I’m the happiest person alive. I can’t wait to be your wife someday and be with you forever. We can do this and we will. No matter what obstacles is thrown at us. We’ll get through it and we’ll do it together. It’s you and me, Ry. You and me forever. I love you baby.
Love,
Missy
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| From Kimmie....It's sad :( |
[04 Aug 2005|04:54pm] |
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Girl: hey baby i want to show you....
Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad
Girl: why? whats wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything
Girl: explain baby
Boy: just lost a championship game,
parents flipped out on me for no reason,
and im catching a cold
Girl: well hey there will always be other games,
you know ill take care of you when your sick,
what your parents flip about ?
Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair
Girl: is it alot of money
Boy: no it just sucks
Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down
Boy: bye
Girl: wait i want to give you some...
Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?
Girl: yeah sure
Girl: bye
Boy: bye
2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....er friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition.
This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend
Sister: omg ( crying )
Boy: what? whats wrong ?
Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck
Boy: is she ok ? ?????
Sister: shes in critical condition
Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes
He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump
Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something
Girls mom: yeah this...
it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick
he opened it.....
it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am
and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you
sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to
and the first picture they took together
he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture
it looked as if in the picture she was crying
then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead
If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this.
if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen
Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best
day of your life THIS SATURDAY. You're number one *love* Will
either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better. If
you break this chain you will have a lousy day on Saturday, and
you know you can
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| Rare summer update.... |
[20 Jul 2005|11:26am] |
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Ok, so I'm at Ryan's right now. I've been here for about 2 weeks now. Not complaining or anything, just getting a little homesick and I really don't want to wear out my welcome. However, I'm coming back in like a week to help Ryan study for his Algebra Final. I'm so scared that he isn't going to pass it. I know that he can and I know that he knows it all, but I can't help but worry. I'm so scared that if he doesn't pass this final, something bad will happen to us and I know how ridiculous that sounds but it's just how I've been thinking lately. I love him so much and I'm so afraid of ruining things or something completely out of our control hurting us and the thought of losing him, makes me physically sick. I have truly never felt this happy in my entire life and these past two weeks really have shown me that I really do belong with him. He's like my other half and I can never put down in words how happy I am and how unbelievably special he makes me feel. I'm rambling on like a maniac!! But I'm really starting to break through that whole barrier thing I put up two years ago and I'm glad that it's with him. I don't think he realizes the little things that he does make me feel so comfortable and you can ask anyone, I am usually not very comfortable with people especially guys. I've tried to break this wall down before and I never could because nobody seemed to want to really help me do it. But Ryan is making it so easy. He's not pushing me to do anything and if something happens or if I get scared of something, we automatically talk about it. The biggest thing about our relationship that really helps is that we don't fight. We never fight, we joke around and we get pissed at each other but that usually doesn't last long. We have had a few small squabbles but those are needed in a relationship. With other boyfriends, I fought with them about everything and it just really wore me down and made me hate dating after they ended. It's different this time and I love it. I love him more than anything and can't wait to see what the future holds for us.
Ok....well that's off my chest. A month and eight days till school starts. I can't wait. I'm so excited to start this new school year. I got a new room mate but I haven't gotten the chance to talk to her yet. I will talk to her soon I hope though. I got my scores back on my Praxis tests. Mom read them to me and I think I passed all three but I'm not sure yet. I have to go home and look at them. I saw MJ the other day. God I missed that girl. I can’t wait to see everyone else. It feels like it’s been forever since I’ve seen them. Ryan and I took a ride up to good old SHU the other day to look around. It felt like I was going home. I loved that feeling and I love that place sooo much. This month won’t be able to go fast enough. The new dorm is no where near being finished, which didn’t surprise me. But the fields are coming along nicely. We’ll see how it all turns out in a month.
That’s all for now. Love you all and I miss you all sooooooo much!!!!! BYES
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| Quiz Time... |
[04 Jul 2005|02:44pm] |
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Your Summer Anthem is Behind These Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Your summer will be marked by heartache - but mostly happiness. |
I hope there is no heartache! :(
| You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream |  You are kind, popular, and generous.
You tend to be successful at anything you try.
A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd.
You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream. |
| You Are 76% American |  You're as American as red meat and shooting ranges.
Tough and independent, you think big.
You love everything about the US, wrong or right.
And anyone who criticizes your home better not do it in front of you! |
Star Wars Horoscope for Capricorn |
You have a ton of ambition and inexhaustible desire to reach your goals.
You are very loyal, going to great lengths to help someone out.
You are a very social unit, winning the hearts of many with your cute personality.
Star wars character you are most like: R2D2 |
You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.
You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval. |
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| Stupid Wimbledon... |
[03 Jul 2005|12:08pm] |
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Andy Roddick soooo should have won Wimbledon. There's always next year! STILL LOVE ANDY!!!!
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| Finally....Some FUN!!!!! |
[26 Jun 2005|02:59pm] |
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Last night was probably the best night I have had in a long time! I had such a good time and finally felt like being home for the summer wasn't gonna suck so bad! Bryn decided to have this "2004 grads from VC" party. A bunch of us showed up and had an absolute blast! I got there and the boys (Torin, Ryan and Jer) decided that they wanted to play volleyball. Girls against guys, of course. So it was those three against six girls (Marci, Bryn, Mags, Justice, Laura, and Me). Of course they cheated so we stopped keeping score, but of course we also had a blast. Then Brynny got the brilliant idea of throwing water balloons which normally would have been a good idea. However, we trusted Torin when he said he wanted to gang up on Ryan with us. Yeah, he's a traitor! Everyone got pretty wet except Mags who stayed out of it. Later on we started a fire and played with sparklers and just caught up with each other. It was awesome. I missed those guys sooo much this year. Once it got darker, we played Capture the Flag. Guys against girls, once again. This time there were four guys (Torin, Jer, Ryan and Bud) and six girls (Bryn, Marci, Madeline, Laura, Lyndsey and Me). It was so much fun. I forgot how close we had gotten but that game definitely reminded me. Ryan got hurt but he'll live and we all had so much fun. I think we may just have to do that again and I'm pretty sure we decided last night we were going to. Definitely fun times!
Andy Roddick is doing very well in Wimbledon, so far. Hoping he keeps it up!
But that's about it. Hope everyone's summer is going extremely well and hope to talk to some of you soon! Love ya bunches and miss ya tons!
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| While I'm on...... |
[23 Jun 2005|01:42pm] |
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From Julie
The True You | | You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. | | With respect to money, you spend as little as possible. | | You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. | | The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. | | You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. | | When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends. |
| Slow and Steady |  Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
Your Deadly Sins
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Envy: 60%
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Sloth: 60%
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Gluttony: 0%
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Greed: 0%
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Lust: 0%
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Pride: 0%
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Wrath: 0%
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Chance You'll Go to Hell: 17%
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You will die a boring death. While dying, you will be jealous of those who die dramatic deaths. |
The True You | | You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. | | With respect to money, you spend as little as possible. | | You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. | | The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. | | You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. | | When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends. |
Part Romantic Kisser |
For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet | Part Shy Kisser |
You *do* love to kiss, once your comfortable with it
And that means knowing the person you're kissing pretty well
You usually don't make the first move when it comes to making out
But you've got plenty of intensity in return |
Your #1 Love Type: INFP | The Idealist
In love, you crave a long term, harmonious relationship.
For you, sex doesn't come quickly - it takes time for you to open up.
Overall, you are supportive, nurturing, and expressive.
However, you tend to be shy and protective of your personal space.
Best matches: ENFJ and ESFJ |
There...that satisfies my quiz need
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| Summer fun... |
[23 Jun 2005|10:29am] |
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It's been a while since I've updated but not a lot has happened. Well nothing anybody really cares about I'm sure. Let's see....
Well I went to the stomach doctor or whatever he was. He said it's very unlikely that I had an ulcer because there is no such thing as a nervous ulcer. He did say that he thinks I have a nervous stomach which I would not disagree with. But whatever. Now that I'm 18 I got decide what to do and being the chicken I am, decided to wait to see if anything else happens or if it starts up again. If it does, they are sticking a scope down my throat to see what the hell is in there. If it doesn't then we will forget about it. Definitely praying for the second. I don't want no scope down my throat. I'm too big of a baby for it. But we'll see!
Um...My family and Ryan's family went to a Pirates game on the 4th. It was so much fun! Even though the Pirates lost. GO FIGURE! Besides that we all seemed to have tons of fun and that's all that matters.
This past weekend was my grandparent’s 50th wedding anniversary. Ryan came up for it and stayed for about 4 days. It was interesting. I'm just really glad he wasn't shy. You can't be shy around my family. But everything went really well. He even got himself a little buddy. My little cousin who barely talks to us, just talked to Ryan all night. It was sooo cute! He got along really well with my family which made me really happy. He acts just like us which is really scary but a definite good thing!
Oh Oh Oh!!!! The new Backstreet Boys CD came out and I love it! Now if I can only find money to get concert tickets!!!! I'm gonna try my hardest cause I really wanna go!!!! Gotta love those Boys!
I can't seem to get a job on my own so I'm babysitting with my sister and I absolutely love it! A set of one year old twins and a 6 year old. Of course the twins are my favorite but that's just cause they are still in that phase where they want to be held and I love holding them! They are the cutest things you have ever seen in your life!
Still need to straighten out this room thing but I'm just so over school right now, I don't want to think about it. But I'm gonna have to start which makes me sad, but oh well!
Well gotta go. Hope everyone's summer is going wonderfully! Love ya all bunches and miss you tons! LATER!
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| Summer times... |
[17 May 2005|05:41pm] |
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Alright, it's time for one of the rare updates during the summer. So let’s see...
Well I got home on Thursday and was really depressed. I miss everyone from SHU and I can not wait until we all go back in August. I miss my Kimmie and my Lindy and my Cayla and my Caitie and my Weed and everyone else. It sucks not having them here to bounce things off of or to whine to. I hate living in hickville too because I have very little if any service on my cell phone, so I can't even call them. Oh well what can I do???
So I went to the doctor for my follow-up about my stomach. I hate doctors as it is and this had to happen. The doctors said that she thinks that I probably do have a small ulcer and acid-reflux or something but she wants to be completely sure. So she insists that I go to a specialist and get a scope. YAY RIGHT!!!! HELLO??? There is now way in HELL a doctor is sticking a scope down my throat and into my stomach while I am still conscious. I'm scheduled to go see him June 3rd. I don't know if it's just to talk first or if he's actually gonna do it there, but I'm scared and of course, my stomach hurts!! Boy this summer is turning out to be a BLAST!!!! I'm really scared about the whole thing and I don't wanna go. I keep trying to pull the "I'm 18 and you can't make me do anything" bit, but of course it's not working. I just hate doctors and I hate being sick and I know my mom and dad are stressed out because of it and that's stressing me out because the last thing they need to worry about is me and my stupid health problems. I should have never said anything in the first place. I'm sure it would have gone away by itself. I hate having people worry about me when they have other things and more important things to worry about...
June 4th is coming closer and closer and then I can see Ryan. I miss him soo much. I don't think I've ever missed any guy this much. I mean don't get me wrong I missed my other boyfriends when I wasn't with them but somehow, it was different. But only 17 more days. Both of our families are going to the game so it should be eventful and interesting. I might have to take a camera!!
Tonight's Alie's Confirmation. I can't believe she's doing this now. I just did this. She's really growing up fast and you can definitely tell. I'm very proud of her and can not wait to see the other two grow up. Although if they grow up that means I have to too. DAMN!!!
Oh well I gots to go. Talk to you all later...BYES
Miss all of you sooo much. Can't wait to see you all again. I love you all and have a great summer!!!!!
Love you Ryan and miss you bunches
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| I don't want to leave..... |
[12 May 2005|08:59am] |
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I can't believe how attached to the people up here I have gotten. I hate watching them leave for the summer and I hate that I have to leave now too. I don't know how I can ever tell them how much I love each and every one of them and how much the truly mean to me. I love you all soo much and I'll see you next year!!!
Here you go Ryan.... :)
Bless The Broken Road
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Chorus:
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Chorus:
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I’m just rollin’ home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you
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